Hi. Well I’ve been having a bit of a crisis. I wish I could have gone somewhere like the Battle Creek Sanitarium (if it still existed) to sort it all out. A spa and a little bit of sunshine always does a body and mind good. Anyway, in the interest of making this blog more like how I am in real life, I’m changing some things around here. Yes, again. You see, somewhere I lost “me” in this space. Or maybe I just never really found myself to start with.
I titled this post Unlearn because that is exactly what I’m going to do. I started this blog in 2011 according to the post dates, but really it was much earlier. I had two previous blogs, in 2010 and 2009 (although there were very few posts). I actually wanted to start a blog in the 2006-2007 time frame, which by all accounts would have made me famous since so many of the (now very successful) blogs I follow started up around then (ha). In any case, I started and stopped, started and stopped, for years. I guess I have been writing semi-regularly now for the past two years, but my writing is all over the map.
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what to do next and inevitably I started to think about how I got here. I just wanted to write about my life and design. I didn’t know a whole lot about writing a blog, so I did what I always did, I researched. A lot. I devoured books on blogging from the library, took all kinds of classes, filled out workbooks, obsessively read other blogs, and contemplated, planned, scheduled, and continued to learn and hone my craft. All that’s fine and good, but only if you then actually use all that you have learned to actually WORK ON your craft. And that’s where I failed. I ended up consuming so much information that it drowned out my own voice. In hindsight, I should have seen this coming, of course. This exact reason is why I withdrew from an Interior Design program at a local college here a while ago. All the creative noise of everyone else just smothered me and my own ideas. I’d love to go back someday, but under different circumstances. I would love to attend art school full time and just start over – to live the life I wish I had chosen. It’s never too late to follow your dreams and really, following this dream was what I originally wanted to use my blog for – a step in that direction.
I’m on a mission to find my voice again. I’m not sure how, but it will involve lots of writing about who knows what (of course design permeates every part of my soul, so it will still be a constant component). Sometimes it might be a wordy post like this one, or sometimes just a few sentences or maybe just an image that inspired me. I hope you will keep reading – about design, and life.